IF IT'S GOING TO BE IT'S UP TO ME

I'm back....
I haven't written in a while because I have had no real success to write about.  I am trying to keep this blog positive and productive so when I am not posting, it can only mean one thing... I'm not doing well on my diet - um, I mean change of lifestyle.  The few pounds I lost have crept back somehow and my activity level over the summer was the lowest it has ever been.  I was inspired by another blogger and her post about what she missed about being fat, which was nothing, of course.  I then tried writing a couple times about what it felt like to be overweight, both physically and mentally, but had such a hard time with it I never posted what I wrote.  (I wish I kept track of her blog so I can reference it here because it was really encouraging).  I will try to return to that subject another time.

So turn the page, so to speak.  I am starting fresh again.  Last week I joined Weight Watcher for the third time in my life.  I was very diligent my first week and kept track of everything I ate and all my activities and I did everything I was supposed to do.  I lost a pound and a half..... sigh.  It was not what I had hoped for.  Every time I start a diet, the first week is usually quite impressive!  In general three to five pounds.  The sweet lady that weighed me in said I did great, however.  I thoughtlessly gave her a strange look and she again said it was a great week.  I thought about it while I was sitting in the meeting listening to the very passionate leader talk about putting healthy things in our bodies and realized it was a good week despite what the scale said.  I walked with friends several times and tracked everything I ate.  I started feeling really good about myself for the first time in a very long time.  I felt in control.  That is a spectacular feeling.

So I only lost a pound and a half.  If I loose 1.5 pounds per week I will loose 78 pounds in one year!  That would be impressive.  And maybe even doable - Ha Ha.

If you have ever been to a Weight Watchers meeting you will know that the meeting leader often tells us corny sayings and mantras and encouraging quotes.  I do think they are cliche and often silly.  But this one has stuck with me despite how corny it sounds: "If it's going to be it's up to me".  I have found my self saying in my mind several times and trying hard to believe in myself and my ability to be successful at loosing a lifetime of extra pounds.  Their new points system and their smartphone apps make it very easy and empowering.

I plan to keep this blog more up to date now.  A few friends have been encouraging me to write more and I thank them for their support.  I also plan on reporting a weight loss next week so wish me luck!

Karen